from feeling like a bitch to being THAT bitch
a supportive space for creative visionaries to break-up with overthinking, trust your vision, & follow through on the creative vision that matters most to you
You say you wanna write your book* but secretly?
You feel terrified it’s going to be mediocre. And your inner good-girl CANNOT STOMACH the thought of failing to meet your own sky-high expectations.
(Ask me how I know.)
*paint the series/ build the video game/ publish your poems / etc. etc.
So she’s got you looking for outs left and right.
Telling yourself:
“I just need to be in the mood to create.” “Life’s busy!”
“I need to wait until things settle down.”
“I’m not in the right headspace.”
And worst of all, you’ve even started to believe your own bullshit!
But you get good at what you practice, and there’s a part of you who’s sick of practicing all this avoidance.
That’s why you’re here.
Because some deep, courageous part of you would rather be bad than never embrace the edge of something new.
bad grl art club is a six-month mastermind for artists ready to build the skills and self-trust that help you finish what you start and share it with the world.
Here, you’ll learn to:
start before you feel “ready,” instead of waiting for the perfect moment.
stay with your vision even when doubt shows up or things feel messy.
embrace the mess and find the thrill of creating order from chaos, delight in the unknown.
finish the projects that matter — the manuscript, blog, sculptures, paintings, video games!
make space for your creativity without sacrificing your wellbeing.
work with your energy and neurodiversity instead of fighting yourself.
be consistent through community, not willpower.
Because your creative dreams deserve a life outside your head, even if doing so makes the asshole, “good girl,” in your head cringe.
Because here’s the thing —
cringe doesn’t kill.
Avoiding your creative brilliance does.
When you integrate the parts of yourself you’ve been taught to avoid and reject, you can step into a frequency farrrrr more interesting and luscious than the old, boring compulsive urge to perform perfection —
you become unshakable and spacious, self-led and absolutely feral with creativity.
The kind of artist people are happy to pay, no matter your price. The kind of thought-leader people respect not because you say All the Right Things but because you live what you teach.
you finish a first draft in record time because you’re no longer compulsively performing perfection and it feels fun
you record and post a reel in less than 10 minutes while in your PJs because you know your ideas are powerful even if your hair is messy
you stop trying to sell a million $10 products to earn a living wage and start pricing your art to actually provide for you and not for this false good girl insistence that to be morally superior, you must be broke
you stop just seeing yourself through the eyes of others you assume are judging and start experiencing yourself as a fierce and precious person you deeply love and admire
You supercharge your creativity because you’re no longer disowning and policing your expression — you’re finally radically letting it flow.
Here’s what happens when you finally embrace the parts of yourself & your art that you fear are “bad”:
pixie came to me with an already robust creative practice, and over the course of working together, they became more anchored in their authority as an artist and launched a global art movement to help other creatives find more freedom & joy in their practices too.
"Since getting to join the community and work with you more directly, I have learned so much! Not least how much I already knew, which on the surface sounds counterintuitive, but is huge under the surface.
The scaffolding and nutrition you and your space has provided has been crucial in my growth towards my own wisdom, and ability to see myself as capable and worthy.”
We’re not here to hand you quick-fix strategies or mindset tips you’ll forget by next week.
This mastermind weaves mindset, strategy, embodiment, nervous system work, and creative practice into one integrated approach — because real transformation happens when all parts of you shift together.
Here’s what you’ll be learning and practicing together:
1. The Art of Creative Self-Love
Create from your inherent brilliance, beauty and worthiness — not in an impossible attempt to prove it exists.
You’ll learn embodied practices that help you trust your voice, honor your needs, and show up as your whole creative self even when your nervous system is activated AF! Instead of letting perfectionism, people-pleasing, and self-doubt hijack the moment, you’ll build a self-relationship rooted in compassion and tenacity.
Result: When your enoughness isn’t on the line, art-making actually starts to feel fun and life-giving again, so of course, you start finishing more and more of what you start!
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2. Strategies for Sustaining Momentum at Every Stage of the Creative Process
The Creative Trail Guide breaks the creative journey into predictable phases so you always know where you are, what’s normal, and what to do next to support the process along.
Result: You’ll have clear tools, rituals, and accountability structures that support consistent progress — even when resistance, overwhelm, and life shows up. No more collapsing under the pressure of your own ideas or the fear of not knowing what comes next.
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3. Shitty Art Challenger
Your secret weapon for unfussy first drafts & sustainable visibility!
You’ll experience the joy and creative freedom of half-assing it on purpose and practice messy, playful output (that, yes, your inner “good girl” deems as shit!) that gets you out of your head and into the flow of making again.
Result: You stop performing perfection and start building up trust in your voice and capacity to share freely without a lot of over-thinking (and shame spirals) involved. You create more, share more and builds more connection, thought leadership, and trust — first and foremost with yourself.
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4. Creative Shadow → Creative Spark
An embodied approach to shadow work.
You’ll excavate the specific stories, fears, and beliefs that keep you hiding and alchemize them into creative fuel.
Result: As you welcome back the disowned parts of yourself, they return with gifts: voice, texture, originality, power. This is how your creativity stops being safe and becomes magnetic.
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5. Artistry, Honesty, & Chemistry
Our mastermind’s core values for the year!
Over the course of the program, we’ll be circling through various explorations of these tenets. You’ll practice rooting into your unique artistry and articulate how you personally define excellence in the process of your work.
You’ll embrace more radical honesty as you assess what corners of your creative habits do and do not serve your wholeness. And you’ll work with chemistry to cultivate the spark you feel toward your art and help your neurochemistry sustain momentum with practices and tools that support longterm devotion.
Result: Each of these tenets offers lite and spacious structures that support you as you create into the unknown. This creates more psychological safety, so you can take bigger creative risks and make bolder work without collapse.
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Program Details
The mastermind runs for six-months on a rolling-basis beginning January 2026. After your six-months ends, you can hop-out if you feel complete or reenroll for another six-month window.
Ten spots are available in total. Six spots are currently open.
Applications close when remaining spots fill, and as new spots open, applications will open again!
To learn more about the application process, click here.
What’s included:
1) Twelve live teaching & group coaching calls (75–90 minutes each)
Twice monthly, interactive workshops and “spotlight-style” coaching calls that shift how you show up to your art. Where your edges, shadows, cringe, and brilliance all get witnessed and supported in real time.
These sessions are hosted Sundays at 1 pm ET/ 10 am PT.
2) Three 1:1 creative breakthrough calls (75 minutes)
Personalized coaching calls with me where we go deep on your art and creative goals — what’s working and what’s holding you back. These calls blend nervous system expansion, shadow work integration, and research-backed creative strategies! Come with questions and frustrations and leave with clarity and next steps.
3) Twenty-Four Creative Flow Labs (90 minutes — weekly)
Think: body-doubling for artists! Art time on the calendar each week where showing up to greet your creative edges with curiosity and persistence gets easier and easier — because you’re not doing it alone.
These calls are hosted Saturdays at 4 pm ET/ 1 pm PT.
4) Creative Resource Library & Private Online Community
Lifetime access to the tools & resources that make up our mastermind’s resource library! Creative prompts, tool-kits, the creative trail guide & more. Plus, yearlong access to our private discord community where you can ask questions, share your work, celebrate wins and be supported in community between calls.
5) 1:1 Voxer Support (Friday–Sunday access)
For more direct support, you get access to a private line with me on Voxer! Ask questions, share struggles in real-time, and expect to hear back from me during my office hours with coaching, pep-talks, gentle ass-kicking and all the support you need to keep moving forward.
6) Playful Bonuses
Small surprises make a long-term community feel more electric & alive! I’m still finalizing our bonus calendar for 2026 but think things like: art crit clubs (time dedicated to getting feedback on your work!) and creative-play workshops!
Investment: $2400
A note on applications:
The application is a way of opening the door for conversation and to make sure we gather a well-rounded group of artists & creatives!
The application asks just three things:
• one link to your social media, blog, and/or website
• a sentence about the creative goal you want to work towards together
• a sentence on what you’d bring to our community
This is all just to get a sense of who you are and what you’re working towards.
I’m not looking to judge your follower-count or online presence. I’m looking to curate a diverse-as-possible group of fierce-and-thoughtful creative baddies.
You’ll hear back from me on your application within 2–3 business days.
If accepted, tuition is due to claim your seat. Monthly payments are available!
If you have questions or want to make sure it’s a good fit prior to applying, please reach out to me hello@ashleytrabue.com for a no-pressure back and forth exploring if the cohort is a fit for you.
Applications are reviewed on a rolling basis, and close when spots fill. If the link is active, spots are open, and you can apply!
Karolyn, a corporate baddie by day, stepped more fully into her identity as an artist and began weekly publishing her photography and writing to a personal Substack blog, as well as deepening a creative practice exploring oil pastels and poetry.
By the end of the year, that snowballed into hitting “publish” on a professional photography website. A week later, she received her first purchase inquiry!
if we haven’t been properly introduced yet, hi!
I’m ashley — a former Montessori teacher and internationally-collected, multi-passionate artist, author and founder of the creative self-love club.
I give a shit about you (specifically neurodivergent, highly creative, big-feeling, ambitious-af, women, non-binary, and queer folks) feeling more at home in yourself and your creativity and art-making, because I give a shit about you feeling more at home in this world. It’s all connected!
This world is a better place because you exist, and I want MORE OF YOU to exist.
I want more of your spontaneous ideas, your passing whims, your artistic explorations, your paintings and books and classes and movements radiating out into the world!!
First and foremost because then you yourself get to experience the delight and thrill of your own unfolding. You yourself get to reckon with the felt-truth that IT IS A GOOD THING YOU EXIST.
You are good (even when you’re bad!) and more of you in the world (even if you’re inner asshole good girl says its shit) is a good thing.
And, secondly, I want you to experience the pleasure of others benefitting from the magic and medicine of your art.
There are folks out there just waiting to be uniquely inspired and nourished BY YOU AND YOUR ART.
And they will never experience it, and you will never know the thrill of creative communion and synergy with them, if you don’t allow yourself to be as creatively big as you want to be.
Which, yes, sometimes means allowing yourself to be/feel “bad,” and cringe and making work that’s mid all the while learning how to love the fuck out of yourself anyways.
And I’m only able to want this for you (yes you!) because, well over a decade ago, I first wanted this for me. Because for many years, I felt TERRIFIED of showing up and showing my ass.
I felt TERRIFIED of being seen in my art and ideas and risking failure bc I thought that would mean proving I wasn’t worthy.
I felt MUCH MORE comfortable spinning out in circles, rewriting tiny corners of a poem to death than I did in being creatively prolific. Until one day, I was tired of it.
I wanted the discomfort of change more than I wanted the discomfort of staying the same, and therein began a lifelong journey of coming home to myself and my creativity.
This is the very work I’ve been sharing with others for the past six years. I’ve coached other painters, musicians, actors, writers, poets, weavers, jewelry makers, teachers, therapists, and healers.
I find this work incredibly rewarding, and I’d love nothing more than to explore co-creating with you!
Real results from my clients + community:
Meghan wrote and recorded an album in our time working together. She then used the tools to go on to write and publish a book of poems in the year following!
Parv went from spiraling in perfection-mode, wasting huge hunks of his weekend perfecting pieces he did not even feel connected to, to building up a deeply-personal body of art he actually enjoyed creating.
Ellen took her robust creative practice and built up multiple income streams around it, so she could work full-time as an artist and community leader!
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I find that when programs are too long (like, say, 12 months) it can be easy to hang in the back of the class and assume, “I have plenty of time — I’ll do more with this later.” But we get good at what we practice, and I want to help you practice leaning IN to your art and saying YES to the things that matter for you.
Six months is long enough to start building real trust and safety both in our coaching relationship but also for you within yourself, and short enough that you feel inspired to lean in and show up! -
If you find that at the end of six-months, you want more support, you can always re-enroll.
A lot of creatives — especially those who opt to work at a group-coaching level — find it helpful to remain in these spaces for longer stretches of time, as they work toward completion of their projects and goals.
Current members will always have first choice or re-enrollment before I open up new spots to the public! -
Even if you don’t have a specific product-based goal (ie like drafting a manuscript, publishing a regular blog, painting a series, etc.) if you have a process-based goal (like showing up weekly to create for the fun of it, writing for myself, exploring new mediums, etc.) the program will likely still be very supportive to you!
There may be corners of it (like our art-crit call!) that aren’t for you, but who knows! You might get in and find fun areas of your practice and goals that could benefit from outside love and feedback.That said, if you’re satisfied in your current creative flow with no complaints or goals you wanna be exploring but aren’t, this probably is not for you!
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No — all sales are final.
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If accepted, you can pay-in-full or split your tuition into six, auto-draw monthly payments. I am not offering scholarships for this program at this time.
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This program requires roughly 2-3 hours a week which includes our weekly 90 minute creative flow session.
Of course, you can always give your creative work more time, and this program offers the infrastructure to support you in doing just that.
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